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So… Is Your Higher Self the Same as Source?

By The Artful Woman
  Not exactly. Think of it like this: Source is the origin —pure consciousness, God/Goddess/Divine Light, whatever you want to call it. It’s the everything-and-nothing energy from which all things come. Your Higher Self is your personal bridge to Source. It’s your soul in its purest form , untainted by fear, ego, or human distortion. Your Higher Self is you , just on the zoomed-out level —the version of you that remembers the full story, all lifetimes, all lessons, all missions. So: Source is the sun. Your Higher Self is the sunbeam that still holds its essence but is uniquely you . Is Your Higher Self Your Soul? Pretty much— but here's the nuance: Your soul is eternal. It’s the part of you that has lived countless lives. Your Higher Self is like the fully awakened version of your soul —the one not currently squeezed into a human body trying to pay bills and avoid family drama. When you're in human form, you're kind of like the tip of the i...
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Finding a Church That Feels Like Home

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By The Artful Woman

I've been attending a church, but if I'm honest, it hasn't felt right. Finding the right church in my area has been a challenge, and even when I do go, it feels more like an obligation than a place of spiritual nourishment. Instead of feeling uplifted, as an empath and a clairsentient, I deeply feel the emotions and energies of others. I often feel drained, I have to build a shield around myself just to protect my peace and avoid pain in my body from negative energy.

Lately, I’ve realized that I feel closest to God when I go for a walk. I find deep meaning in those moments of solitude, surrounded by nature, where my heart feels open to God. I still attend church because I want to learn from the Bible and grow in my faith, but should it really be this hard to want to go?

I used to be part of a church where I couldn’t wait for Sundays—where the people were warm, the atmosphere was uplifting, and I truly felt God’s presence. But now, my body almost resists attending this one. It’s like my spirit knows this isn’t where I belong, and I have to push myself just to show up.

Does Church Attendance Define Faith?

One of the biggest struggles I face is guilt. I was raised Catholic and later converted to Christianity, and I take the Bible seriously when it says that no one comes to the Father except through the Son. Because of that, I wrestle with the feeling that not attending church means I’m somehow denying God. But at the same time, how can a place that feels so spiritually empty bring me closer to Him?

I’ve had to remind myself:

  • Church attendance is not salvation. Salvation is a gift of grace through faith in Jesus Christ, not a checklist of religious duties.
  • Faith is about relationship, not routine. God cares more about our hearts than our physical presence in a building.
  • Guilt should not define my connection with God. If going to church feels more like a battle than a blessing, maybe it’s time to seek Him in other ways.

When Church Feels Like an Empty Place

I’ve tried for years to connect with people at this church. I know who they are, but not a single person has made an effort to truly know me. Most people keep to themselves, barely acknowledging others—except for the inner circle clique. The energy in the room feels disconnected, and the atmosphere is always awkward. Instead of feeling welcomed and uplifted, I feel like an outsider. It’s uncomfortable, and rather than drawing me closer to God, it leaves me questioning why I keep showing up.

Where I live, there aren’t many options unless I’m willing to drive a long distance. That makes this decision even harder. But should I keep forcing myself to attend a place that feels spiritually empty just because it’s convenient?

Which is why I’m choosing to reflect on my experience—because it’s time to grow and move on. I’ve been on a deep spiritual journey, expanding my mind, learning, and evolving. Maybe this is just part of the growing pains. But one thing is clear: it’s time to stop settling for less than I deserve and start making a real effort to find a place that aligns with my beliefs.

If you’re stuck in a place where you’re not being blessed and can’t be a blessing because no one cares, I want to encourage you to reflect as well. This isn’t about being judgmental—it’s about being honest. Sometimes, self-reflection opens our eyes and spirits to truths we’ve been avoiding.

Seeking a True Spiritual Home

This journey has taught me a few things:

  • God looks at our hearts, not just our habits. A real relationship with God isn’t about how often you step into a church but about how deeply you walk with Him in your daily life.
  • Finding the right church is important. It should be a place of spiritual nourishment, not a place that drains you.
  • Attendance is not salvation: Attending church is not a requirement for salvation. Salvation is a gift of grace received through faith in Jesus Christ.
  • Focus on living out your faith: True faith is expressed through love, compassion, and service to others. You can live out your faith in many ways, both inside and outside of a church setting.
  • Focus on your relationship with God: As mentioned earlier, your relationship with God is more important than church attendance.
  • God understands your struggles: God is gracious and understanding. He knows your heart and the challenges you're facing.
  • Explore alternative ways to worship: If attending a traditional church setting feels overwhelming or negative, consider exploring other options, such as online services, home worship groups, or spending time in nature reflecting on your faith.

Worship Shouldn’t Be a Struggle

On top of the lack of connection, there are other challenges. There’s a man at the church who shouts during worship—loudly and completely out of sync with the music. One day, I had the misfortune of standing right in front of him. As a stroke survivor, loud noise doesn’t just distract me—it cuts through me in a way that’s physically overwhelming. Worship music is my favorite part of church services. I've personally experienced healing through worship during some of the darkest times in my life. Therefore, having this sacred time disrupted by someone shouting is not only counterproductive but also deeply disrespectful, as it disrupts my personal connection with God the very reason why I attend church.
I don’t judge him for his way of worshiping, but I also have to acknowledge my own needs. Worship should be about connecting with God, not struggling to endure an environment that makes it harder to focus on Him.
Here are a few thoughts on the situation:
  • Prioritizing the needs of the many: While it's important to be compassionate towards individuals with struggles, the needs of the entire congregation should also be considered. Disruptive behavior, regardless of the reason, can negatively impact the worship experience for others.
  • Healthy boundaries: It's important for churches to establish and maintain healthy boundaries that ensure a respectful and inclusive environment for all members.
  • Finding a supportive community: As mentioned earlier, if your current church environment consistently disregards your needs and concerns, it may be time to explore other options that better align with your values and expectations.
Protecting Yourself from Negative Energies:
  • Prioritize your well-being: It's perfectly acceptable to prioritize your mental and emotional well-being. If attending your current church is consistently causing you stress or anxiety, it's okay to step back and explore other options.
  • Set healthy boundaries: Learn to set healthy boundaries with people and situations that drain your energy.
  • Focus on positive influences: Surround yourself with positive and uplifting people who support your spiritual growth.
Here are some resources that might be helpful:

 Managing Challenging Behavior in Church - The Mind and Soul Foundation www.mindandsoulfoundation.org  

  • Local faith-based organizations: Consider contacting organizations like Young Life, Campus Crusade for Christ, or the Navigators. They often offer small group opportunities and can connect you with other believers.
  • Don't give up on your search: Keep looking for a church that aligns with your values and beliefs. Consider exploring different denominations, attending smaller groups, or even connecting with online communities.
If you’re struggling to find a church where you feel at home, don’t give up. Keep searching, keep praying, and most importantly, keep your connection with God strong—wherever that may be.

So here’s my call to action: Go where you’re being fed, not where you’re being drained.


 

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