When Survival Looks Like Dependence There are moments in life where everything you thought you understood about yourself gets stripped away. For me, it happened in a single instant—an accident that left me with severe injuries, a long recovery ahead, and a body I no longer recognized. I’ve been trying to process it ever since. Not just the physical pain, but the emotional weight of waking up into a completely different reality. A reality where I’m dependent on other people for basic things I used to do without thinking. And that’s where things get complicated. Because dependence doesn’t always come with safety. Sometimes it comes with tension. Sometimes it comes with resentment. Sometimes it comes wrapped in help that has strings attached. The Strange Place I Ended Up In Before my accident, I broke up with my boyfriend. That part was clear. I didn’t love him, and I didn’t want to be in the relationship anymore. But life doesn’t always respect clear decisions. While I was ...
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Looking back on my childhood, I now understand that I’ve always been an empath. My intuition has been with me for as long as I can remember, guiding me—sometimes even saving me. And when I think about all the things that happened when I was five years old, I realize just how many times I was protected by something beyond logic.
That year, I fell out of a moving truck. I got hit by a car. And then, one morning on my way to kindergarten, I escaped something far worse.
We lived near Horace Mann Elementary School in Anaheim, so my mom had me walk to school by myself. That day, I must have been running a little late because I don’t remember any other kids around.
As I reached the entrance of the school, I noticed a white station wagon. An older man sat inside. He pulled up right in front of me, swung open the passenger door, and called out,
“Little girl, do you want some candy? Come here and get some candy.”
Thinking back, he probably followed me there.
As a child, I loved candy. Any other day, I might have run right up to grab some without thinking twice.
But something inside me—something instinctive—told me not to.
Then he said it.
“Get in the car.”
And I knew.
Without being taught, without anyone ever warning me about strangers and candy and open car doors, I knew.
I didn’t run. I didn’t scream. I just kept walking, pretending I hadn’t heard him.
I never told anyone. Not my mother. Not my father. Not a single soul. I just knew that I wasn’t supposed to get in that car.
And that knowledge, that instinct, saved me.
Another moment where I could have been lost forever—but I wasn’t.
Another miracle.
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